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My parents are here just until tomorrow afternoon. This weekend is going far too fast. And the fact that I will be all alone as soon as tomorrow is making my heart hurt in so many ways. I miss them....

ME WANT

Every time I go to Barnes and Noble I head right to the poetry section. I love to read and write poetry. I love to be inspired. One book I always pick up is Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair by Pablo Neruda.

That man can write! I really want to own it but never can spend the money. Pablo Neruda is by far one of my favorite poets. I really need to rent the postman again. Maybe I can get James to watch it with me, though he will be less than thrilled by the idea of subtitles. I love to copy Neruda's style and technique, his imagery and rawness for love and women. Obviously I write mine towards the male side instead but along the same lines. I can copy all I want and still I don't know if I will ever come close to being the type of writer he is, I am like a light weight up against the world champion heavy weight. That is all well and good because that man just Inspires the heck out of me!

Soap Plug

Ok I cannot get over how much I am in love with these soaps. They are super expensive so I always wait until they are on sale for 5/10. That does not happen very often. But I love this soap and the weird thing is I consider it MY soap, I put it away when guests come over and they use the generic store brand soap. James has gotten into the habit of using my good soap, I can always tell because his hands smell nice when he gets out of the bathroom. LOL what a dork I cannot believe he likes my girly soaps.
Right now I am using Tropical Pineapple, my Favorite B&BW scent is always Cherry Blossom.

Excited for Turkey day.

I cannot wait until Thanksgiving.
I am going to see the Lions play against Green Bay on Thanksgiving Day.
And the best part is the tickets were free! How you ask? Well my work has a commercial ad on a local tv station, I am actually in the commercial it is pretty neat, well anyways the guy who handles our account was talking about schoomzing us and mentioned tickets.
Well the original plan was he was going to give us six tickets for an upcoming game. Well then he calls and I answered at noon and he said he could only get two tickets for the Oct. 21st game, but then mentioned he had Tickets for the Thanksgiving game because he wasn't going to go on the holiday, so of course I said I wanted them.
I called James and he was like HELL YES!!!!! Especially when I told them they were free. So we are both super excited, I am just hoping nothing falls through with these tickets. Man now that we have our hopes up and we have been telling people. I am really excited it will be so fun to scrapbook a less than traditional Thanksgiving!
I need to go shopping for a Lions jersey to wear!!!

My new Shoppe

I finally created my handmade shoppe!
Check it out!

www.CREATEaTHOUGHT.etsy.com

Nothing in there yet but lots of stuff by the weekend!

2/30

Poem two out of 30!

Perfect bliss lies on lovers tongues who are unwilling to do or say anything to make it right by your laws.
Shall he be punished and rightfully so, for has he not sinned against you, his fellow man his lover, scorned betrayed a mad woman, a shell, an excuse for a human.
She unlike any other will turn his advances away and make him pay and hurt the way she has paid and hurt for too long.
I say I shall scream it from the tops of houses that I am free and bare and lonely and I have been taken hostage and for granted.
But I can rise out of his self proclaimed black hole of misery and set fire to all the world and all the world will know my name and fear and wonder in it's sound.


Oh and obviously © Me Beth Detloff

1/30 poems

I want to try and update my blog for thirty days straight with some of my recent writing works, just to get myself back in the habit of writing before school starts. I have actually been writing a couple times a week but now I will try and post every day for 30 days something newer.

I am sinking down
the brown gray earth swallowing me
I touch the bare core
and feel myself spit up
a corpse of broken bones and a broken soul.

I am crawling out
of my self dug hole
my bones scrape against dry clay
leaving behind fragments for rememberance
small white pieces of what I worked
so hard to build.

I am kneeling
before the idol gods
praying for deliverance
hoping not to be answered
willing to sacrifice nothing
in return for everything.

Oh and obviously © Me Beth Detloff

Goals

I wrote this in my paper journal a while ago.

Thing I want to do sometime in life:

Sky Dive
Scuba
Swim with dolphins, but I want to really swim with Sharks but that is harder then dolphins.
Touch actual sea coral reef.

See a Real like Panda

Drink Fresh coconut milk, off the tree
Travel outside of US and Can
Bungee
Be a published scrapbooker
Get down to a size 9
Go horseback riding
See an ocean sunset and rise
Have been to all 50 states
Run or walk marathon

Write a book

Did you see it

The pretty pretty thing that was in my garden?

This is about the only bug that does not scare the living day lights out of me! And I was outside enjoying the sun when I saw this pretty b-fly. I had to get some pics.

This is what happens when I am depressed

I decide when I am depressed I need dessert. I decide to go to meijers. I decide rootbeer floats sound good. I decide that Ben and Jerry's on sale for 2/for 5 is a great thing. I drink about four of these last night.

But oh man they were soooooo good! But yeah did not help much with the depression, just made me feel fat and full.
But I scrapped and that was good!

Ignorance

A poem I wrote a while ago. In my jorunal from Nancy!

Ignorance flows through us like blood
We let it drip out in our words and our actions.
We soak it up daily
We think it is funny and we openly encourage it.
We cannot live without ignorance
It has taken over our way of life, our culture.
Ignorance is our neighbor, our friend, our family member
Ignorance lives in each one of us.
It can control you in ways that are harmful
Ignorance can run you life, it can destroy you.


Sometimes I feel like there is so much ignorance in the world and in people in my life it is like I am swimming in it.

Something I don't get

WHAT IS IT???
What is it with Barnes and Noble and Stephanie and I getting hit on by old men?
I cannot stand it, it has happened twice now and it is just annoying, I DON'T want to talk to you I DON'T want to have you sit by us and ask personal questions.
YOU ARE OVER 60 we are 21 not no not no not cool man!
I just do not get it?
Do old men think young women like them?
Well sorry bud-o not me.